I have a channel now.
[link]

Come watch me do my thing?

I love riding on the highway.

I love this music right now.
God Damn! This playlist is f%cking sweet!
[link]

What am I going to type now?
Random keys? No.
God. I love this music.
Did I mention I love this music?
No. I am not on drugs....unless this music counts as one.

I didn't know what eskimo pies were until 1st grade.

My most embarassing moment was in 3rd grade, when I snotted all over the audience during a small, in-class, play. (My best-friend made a funny face and I burst out with laughter...and snot.)

I like getting lost. I also like making maps.

I had a dream about finding a white kitten with a black spot on its forehead, and naming it "Rice"

The internet failed me for a second, but recovered.

I watched Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince not too long ago. I was widely disapointed, as expected.

I've got a mild cold.

Maybe I should stop typing?

I've recently started craving roasted marshmellows. The big ones hurt my teeth.

I'm a tid-bit lonely tonight. My sis and mom have been chatting all day, and I feel like a 'fifth-wheel' around them.

"TAKE THAT SIDE!" - quote from the Slytherin quidditch team captain in Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's/Philosopher's Stone movie.

Holy Sh$t! Its already 4:19 in the morning! Damn. Time flys.

I ate chinese food yesterday. I really loved the peanut chicken and green beans!

My sister told me to draw an evil cheeseburger. . . I did. (I may post it. I may not.)

I need to stop talking about food. My fatty-senses are tingling!

I just realized that I've had my SNES emulator running this whole time...It's been on since 9:00 pm.

My sister is going to bed. She's taking the folding mattress. I'll have to sleep on the recliner.

The microphone on my headset keeps stabbing my shoulder.

Dammit. Now I want food. Noodles to be exact.

ooOOOooo! Kingdom Hearts: Night of Fate - love this music!

I think I'm gonna make me some noodle before my sis gets comfty.

....BRB....

I'm heating up water now.

I wonder if my life is going to go in a good direction.
Atleast I don't do drugs.

Made me some noodles. I didn't have any sauces for it so I mixed in milk, chilli powder, butter, salt, garlic pepper, and a half-packet of ramen noodle chicken flavoring. Its quite good!

Tastes just like Pasta-roni!

I think I'm going to stay up all night and try to level out my sleep schedule. (I've been staying up til 4am and sleeping til around 2pm)

I started playing a game that is a hack for Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past, named LoZ: Parallel Worlds.
It's very challenging! I think its nearly impossible to beat without using save states.
It is a completely diferent game too. (dungeons and all!)
There are some minor glitches and spelling errors but its still a great game!(ex: You can see 'reflections' of some bosses and Farore is spelled 'Favore' in Farore's Isle)
I don't remember where to get the patch for it, but I can direct you to the official website, if you're interested.

Here --> [link]

ooOOOOooo! More Kingdom Hearts music! (Despite all the crap about disney characters, Kingdom Hearts is actually quite a good game!)

Well, I guess I'll conclude this mindless jabber.

Thanks for reading!

- Shel

(yay. I get to type all this sh*t AGAIN!!)
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For the past 16 years my family has lived in a trailer.

For the past 16 years we've lived amoungst piles and piles of junk.

For the past 16 years my mother has told us that "God will get us out of here" or "God will get us a house, someday".

NO!

God is NOT going to get us a house!
God is NOT going to get us out of here!

Yes. We've established that we have faith in our god, but NOTHING is going to change unless we put some faith in ourselves!

What do we expect to get from just waiting for God to magically change our lives?
God is not going to help us, unless we put the effort to help ourselves first!

Yes! There will be sacrifices. We may have to go without some of our "oh so important" luxuries that we have now.
- but don't you think it will be worth it?

Take this analogy for example:
A bare-footed man in a cave comes to a split in his path. To his left is a tunnel with a smooth surface that leads into darkness. To his right is a tunnel with a rigged surface that leads upward into a far away light.
Since the man has no shoes, he decides to take the left path, looking for an easier way. Now he becomes lost, and by the time he finds his way back to the jagged path, he has no energy left to climb it.


This is how I feel about all of this.

I realize that life will be tough once we start to work towards that goal, but the longer we wait more this place is going to kill us.

Yes. It may not seem like it, but this place and the way we live is KILLING US, both inside and out.

So, if you're not with me when I say, "Lets get the f*ck out of this hole!" then you're on your own,

Cuz then I'll know that you have no will to make your lives better, and theres nothing I can do to help.

To my family.


-Shel

God.

Life just keeps getting beter and better(Sarcasm).

So,

As you all know my mother broke her leg a couple months ago.
Unfortunately, she had to have it amputated.
Everything has been ubber f@cked-up since then.
I really don't have a stable home now, cuz I'm always staying at her place to make sure she's ok, but I'll go back to my roommate's place to get away sometimes.
My roommates consider me using their place as storage until futher notice and have kindly cut my cost of rent.
Thanks to the economy turning to even more sh%t, my dad hasn't been making enough to support his household.

And now, to top it all off, our cat, Chewy, meow'd her last meow sometime around the morning of June the 1st.
I'm thankful that she died peacefully, sleeping under the flowers, where she usually greets us when we drive up.
She had a good long life. - 9 years of love and the freedom to do what she wanted.

It was either Spring or Summer in 2000 when my sister and her friend rescued Chewy from a drainpipe. If I remember correctly, we first thought the little ball of fluff was a male, and since it's meow sounded alot like a wookie cry, we decided to name it Chewbacca.
Even though we knew Chewbacca was a girl later, we kept the name cuz we felt it still fit, she still went through alot of nicknames though... Chewball, Bacca, Baccakins, Fluff, Big Fluffy, Big Lovable, Big Love Fluffy Kitty, etc, etc...
She was always there to give you love, whether you needed it or not.
She would tolerate about anything we'd dish out. For example, when I would have to cut off matted fur from her, no matter how uncomfortable it was, she would do her best not to freak out and run off.
When you were sad, she was there to comfort you. When you put your head to hers, she would always rub against it to tell you she loves you. Sometimes she'd even give you sweet sandpapper kisses on your forehead. <3
If she was outside, she'd always be the first one to greet you at the door to your car when you came home, or be there to tell you bye when it was time to leave.

But now its our turn to say good bye.

Chewy, you'll always be missed.

....I'm sure you'll be the first to greet us at the gates of the afterlife.

So much to do, so little time.
Now that I finally have my computer back I can work on the stuff I usually neglect.

During my incredibly passive job, I've had gargantuan amounts of time to work on art.
Infact,(unless I get lazy or something comes up)I should have the first page of Black Lemonade finished around late Febuary.

By the way, Ditto Rape has been removed.
I received two notes, one said the content was judged unacceptable, and the other said it needed a Mature Tag.
I agree I should have added one, but thought nothing of it since its one of my older deviations.
So now I ask of your advice.
Should I submit it again, making sure it contains a mature tag?
Or should I not bother?

-Shel